not in the mood .

hey people .

currently not in the mood .

why ?

cze i tried to do good but she misunderstand .

haiyy ,

i tried to stay away from argueing with uu ,

but at last we fought cze of misunderstanding .

haiyy ,

anw ,

lets drop the topic .

so how are uu guys ?

hope uu are doing well .

just wanna leave a msg ;

band members - hey , if i did anything wrong , well im sorry kayy ?

other friends? - yeahh , uu too . if i did anything wrong , im sorry .

Dearest - same msg . if i did anything wrong just forgive me . ]:

well thats it , bye

im useless

hey peeps .

i noe it sounds irritating , yeahh .

well thats reated to what im gonna post .

haiyy , ]:

everyone before said that im irritating 

and nw ,

i feel like a fucking irritating fucker .

my post are irrittating rite ?

then WHY ARE UU READING ??!!

come on ,

uu talk about me but uu still research on me ,

how fuck is that ?

anw , im irritating .

right ?

okay ,

im irrittatingly sad .

the sadness and tyme ,

it irrittates me .

and thats why i`m irritating .

i always tried to understand uu ,

undrstand everyone ,

but at last ,

not appreciated .

is this a test for me ?

but why me ?

its a BIG test i assume .

it irritate me day and night ,

non-stop .

haiyy ,

never appreciated ! ]:

im in no mood , like normal .

bt i jut want to let uu noe ;

band members - i tried to make uu guys smile bt seems like im smilling alone ,

other friends? - well , i tried to getalong with uu guys but why uu think that way ?

family - cummon , im related to uu guys . speechless ,

dearest - i just cant wait anymore but i still want to wait , still here for uu always . i still love eu , ]:

well thats all .

bye taccaire .

so not in the mood ,

Sowie !

hey peeps ,

Sowie for not posting much .

i not in the mood lurhh katerkan .

k lets start from ,,

last week ?

nothing much ,

just jealousy , -_-"

k mepek .

next ,

lets skip to ......

last two days ?

webcam nan aida , [:

i was happy !

hehe . its like meeting her ,

ohh i miss uu sooooo munchymuch .

k anw ,

yesterday ...

bought new lappie !!!

with my OWN money ,

[:

its like super promotion , $499 .

upgrade ram from 1 gig to 2 gig .

hee ~

so happy !

at last adr lappie sendiri ,

taqyah gado nan adk beradik utk pakai computer .

hehe .

k mepek ,

anw ,

so nw uu noe why i always cnt sleep rite ?

i just dunnoe why ,

its always uu in my mind .

haiyy ,

move on ?

still not sure .

like my phrase ,

the world gets older, n more people r getting better. 

bt im nt improving, cze im waiting. for u im willing.    

im hurt . haiyy ,

ilysm !

remember that , always . ]:

not in the mood , always .

hey peeps ,

currently not in the mood ryte now .

so yeah ,

not posting much .

family ?

push me aside .

yeahh , thanks dad for everything .

THANKS alot .

Ex ?

have a feeling she dont want me anymore .

WHY ?

ily , have eu ?

i waited for eu ,

have eu ?

haiyy ,

move on ,

can i ?

must be strong ,

am i strong enough ?

haiyy ,

wanna patch ?

eu never want .

haiyy ,

thats all i think .

bye

Sad ? ];

hey peeps ,

hw u doing ?

im FUCKING sad , ];

and friends of mine ,

do talk whatever u want at me ,

but its my life .

im pissed ~

k lets start about ,

SUNDAY !

family day but didnt go out wit parents that day.

went to shop wit imran ,

then after that meet kam and azhar(band members) at ion orchard.

it was like 4+ ?

then kam dad wanted to bring us go railway station makan .

we agreed .

we then hop on kam`s dad`s van and headed to the railway station .

saw my ex ,

she was smiling at me . [;

i smiled back and kam`s dad saw she smiling at me.

he thought i dunnoe her .

then he say to me ,

adr chance tuu . hehe !

then hop on back to the van.

and without us knowing ,

kam`s dad brought us to marina barrage .

WoW !

gehreq , lepak2 .

every single step i thought of eu ,

every breath i take there reminds me of eu ,

and every scenery there take me to misery . ];

i just love eu and only eu .

haiyy ,

then went to orchard back and mustaffa centre .

went home around 1am .

kk next ,

yestersay which was 141209 ;

i went to tampines alone to buy battery for my hp and went back home .

messaged her but didnt eply .

haiyy ,

then at night went night soccer ,

nothing much happened .

then get home around 11 .

then i read her blog .

Every single article ,

she MUST mention that name . R _ _ _ _ _

haiyy ,

she like HIM ?

well im lost in the battle .

i just dunnoe what to do .

my friends say to me to move on ,

and i tried .

i cant ,

just kept thinking of eu .

eu and only eu .

i hope eu understand my feelings .

i promised to make eu happy always .

i never broke my promise untill that FUCKING BITCH BASTARD BOMBARD BIG mistake i did . ];

but eu didnt aprecciate it .

and i appreciate what eu did ,

its just that im to stress that made me do that mistake .

haiyy , ];

well i dont wanna talk bout it .

if only i can rewind back tyme .

nw , i dont have a listening ear ,

a place to rely on ,

a love to throw to .

well i only have my blog .

thats why i blog always .

i complaint to this  blog and i feel better cze i got someone. i mean someTHING to share my probs with .

not like last tyme ,

share it to her . ];

k enough .

i dont wanna shed a tear ,

k taccaire readers ,

are you really for me ? ];

not in the mood

hey peeps ,

currently not in the mood now .

k lets talk bout yesterday ,

friday .

it was a fucking sad day.

i just felt rejected.

why god?

in the morning my fam didnt even speak to me.

when the saw me, they just kept quite.

its so sad.

the i wentbugis with my another friend,

he was like acting weirdly towards me,

all of the sudden.

haiyy, ];

then i went to work and night time,we fought?

im sowie kayy?

i noe i hurt ur feelings,

but just forgive me.

im not good at caring for ur heart,

i suck.];

k next topic, dont wanna talk much.

thursday,

it was also a sad day.

fought with her that night.

WHY???!!

haiyy,

after all this while i waited for her for so long,

its not aprreciated? haiyy,

bby,

i wanna say straight forward.

i want to be with u,

not bcoze of urbody or whatever.

but i wanna be with eu bcoze of ur love,

the way eu smile,

the way eu show ur caringness,

the way eu express urself.

and bby, i promise that any problems that comes to eu,

i will try to help  eu in any way with the best solution at not to be mad at eu.

remember that time eu stress and i helped eu?

i NEVER broke my promise to u until that tyme.

but i confessed that it is i BIG mistake.

im stupid fucking ass, i noe.

im sorry,

i hope eu forgive me.

bby,

i hope eu thrust me.

for what i did and not doing it again,

and to care for ur heart seriously. haiyy,

i think thats it.

now all my friends , fam , her , workmate , manager .

i feel rejected by them.

if only dead,

people would be sad for just a minute and happy back.

or even not sad at all.

haiyy,

kk taccaire peeps.

and bby,

ily. ];

hope eu consider well , ];];];

Hey peeps !

how are you guys ?

doing great?

yeahh .

me?

fucking life fer this week !

haiyy,

kk first, about last sunday.

kanina choucheebyee !

my whole family and i went to my aunt house,

gt these function.

and eventually, im working tht day.

my dad`s plan for that day ;

12pm- proceed to aunt house.

3pm- leave my aunts house and go ion orchard, shopping.

My plans for the day ;

12pm- proceed to aunt house together with fam.

3pm- proceed to work.

BUT, the day went like this ;

1pm- proceed to aunt house.

4pm proceed to next event.

so i wanted to go to work, but my dad say follow him to shopping for a while.

my work starts at 6.

sunt house at sembawang. the time getting there takes about 40 min.

and the tyme from orchard to my workplace is like 1hr 30 min.

altogether, 2hr 10min.

WTH??!!

by the tyme im 10min late for work .

then had a commossion wit daddy.

my mum was trying to cover me, but at last they blame EVERYTHING on me.

i was like so stress!

that day is a fucking day to me.

walaowaeyhh !!!

k nvm. that night,

aida was stress. i was stress, summore going back from home, and at home also stress seeing my parents.

so it was like FUCKING KANINA GYLER BABS stress.

then she insisted on not telling me her prob, 

but at last she tell.

okkayy.

her prob is about her life.

ouhhkkayy, gave her some advice and yeahh,

she cooled down.

and yeahh, i still love her.

the same feeling since the start of our relationship,

041008.

haiyy,

i waited for her like almost two month even though she said nt nw for everytime i asked her fer patch.

but i will still wait till the last of my breath. ]:

i love her veryverymuch.

wheteher or nt it is appreciated?

idontnoe.

but nvm,

haiyy.

sadsadsad , ];];];

k anw,

i made a LONG poem. 

which i changed it to a song . [;

here is the poem.

no COPYRIGHT aites ! [:

Sekali pandang wajahmu,

terasa tenang dihatiku.

kuinginkan engkau disisiku,

tetapiku dapat tahu engkau selingkuh.

Engkau patahkan janjimu.

Engkau dustai cintaku.

Ku tak kan bercinta lagi.

selepas kejadian ini,

Ku simpan dihati.

Ohh..._ _ _ _ (name)

sanggupnya kau manyakiti,

hatiku yang suci.

ku...sedar,

nasibku yang sebegini,

ujian ilahi.

Sa...nggupnya,

engkau pergi dengan dia,

bersuka ria.

Sa....kitnya,

hatiku yang terluka,

tanpa kau sedar.

Akhirnya kita berpisah,

supaya kau hidup bahagia,

dengan si dia.

Ku takkan lupakan dia,

kekasihku yang tercita,

_ _ _ _   _ _ _ _ _ _(name)..... 

So how ??

hehe .

k till here i guest.

my hands are tired of typing. [:

k taccaire folks !

Im back !

Hey peeplss!

sowie for not posting long .

cze i got soccer camp and stuff,

so lets start .

The camp,

it was FCUKing tiring.

kaki cramp gyler naq mampos .

the third day training,

EVERYONE walk like old man , [:

haha..

k next,

........

actually dunnoe what to post .

just wanna say that im missing her, and loving her .

does she appreciate me? ohh well ,

i dunnoe.

k lhh , taccaire guys .

insya-allah update more.

SadSad ,

Heyho heyhey !

sorry for not posting for like .....

few days ?

k anw ,

lets start .

161109 ,

Nothing much .

stayed at home coze raining , sleep .

zZzZzZ

171109 ?

went to play soccer wit schoolmate . 

long tyme never play oredy lorr !

abes main je kaki cramp gyler !

taqleyhh gerak ,

so baring je .

and while baring , tgkk gambar yang istimewa dalam frame . ];

181109 ,

adr rehearsal ! 

i performing a guitar performance ,

there are four of us .

it was last minute grouping , coze some of my friends cannot .

if not for then , my band is only me , myself and i .

Walauweeyyyyhhh ,

then we peform three song this wednesday(real day performance) ,

Stand by Me - Ben King or sumthing ,

Im yours       - Jason Mraz

Nurain          Budak yuying ?(spectator's pick , i oso dunnoe why . [: )

these three song im gonna play .

Singer ? most probably all of us .

two guitarist , one singer and one drummer .

but at rehearsal only one guitar and one singer attend .

want to see one of he song's video ?

search youtube , [SC boyz]

okkayy ?

[:

and today teman mummy go pasar .

jumpe my nenek , and stuff .

And one more thing !!

abt 171109 ,

my mummy birthday !

brought her to my workplace ,

MadJack , Jalan Kayu .

i blanje my nenek , mummy , two of my makcik , two of my siblings and one of my cuzzie .

altogether price ?

dont wanna state . [:

to Ex ,

i still love you .

hope eu accept me back for who i am ,

for what i did wrong .

everyday i see our pic , remember our 11th monthsary present eu gave me ?

haiyy ,

i`m sorry .

i shouldn't have made you that way for how you love me . ]:

i`m sorry , ];];];

151109

heyho heyhey !

today is just a short post ,

so yeah.

lets start ,

today got work .

damn tiring !

ishh2 ,

i came late , kene marah nan boss !

aiyoyo!

haha .

bt nvm , dh biasa ... -_-"

anw , then go home early skit sebab tarq ramai orang dtg makan ,

so yeahh .

and before that go lepak2 jap wit one of my band members , wan .

AIDA !

i LOVE eu !

hope eu accept me back , ]:

well thats it ,

taccaire folks !

141109

Heyho heyhey !
just came home , nw blogging .
haha ,

kk , lets start .
i went to watch soccer match at indoor stadium ,
Singapore vs Thailand .
it was a fucking tyme uhh ,
but quite fun .
Weii Singapore team ,
korang maen kekok lurhh niari .
and im the most kecoh-est around me .
asal dhorang maen taik je ,
got this beat kluar ,
the at the end of the beet we shout buto !
haha !
i was the most kecoh beb !
shout here and there ,
haha .
and until i small girl sitting behind me learnt what i said ,
BUTO(cock) !
hahaha !

well thats all for today i guess ,
nothing much .
and yeah , just missing her .... ];
ily ,

Life nowadays .....

heyho heyhey !

sowie for not posting for LOOONNNGGG !

i`ve been busy with exam , work ...

so yeah ,

lets start with ........

111109 ?

damn suay ahhh !

SUAY 1 ;

i planned with my friends to go fishing at ECP ,

and coincidentally , aida was there also .

so i was on my way there , alone .

once i reached ECP , i called my friend .

guess what they said ??

they changed plan to Pasir Ris Park !

WAALLLAAOOOOUUUWWEEYYYHHH !

bingit siot . k nvm ,

SUAY 2 ;

then i wanted to meet aida ....

we met at 7eleven , near mc .

she was cycling . she is with rinie .

then we lepak KEJAP je ....

then she said she has to go back to her friends .

then she said i cannot follow , cze they got class outing , no outsider .

then in my mind was like , then i go where ??

then rinie said just come , but since i dont want aida to lose face ,

i said to her , hust go , have fun .

then se left .

so im alone , from 3 all the way to 6:30 .

i played the guitar ,

remembering my past , about us .... ]:

almost cried , but im a man ! LOL

but its okay , she happy im happy .

then 6:30 i left ECP , thought of meeting my Band members .

they agreed , and i on my way to hougang .

SUAY 3 ;

i reached there at about 7:15 .

i waited for them untill 9:30 !

KAAAANNIIIINNAAAA !

bt lucky i treat them as my brother , so i forgive and forget .

well , that was just my luck .... haish ,

AIDA !

i still love eu .

i made a lot of sacrifises to eu , but eu just dont seem to appreciate .

i lied my mum to go to your birthday party ,

used my monthly expenses for a cake for eu ,

and alot of stuff .

and at last we fought that day .

hmmmm .

next , 131109 .....

i was working morning , to 6 .

AND AIDA GO LEPAK WITHOUT ME KNOWING ,

bt nvm ... forgive , forget ....

BUT LEPAK WITH ERWIN !!!

nvm , i love her so i dont talk much ...

ERWIN SPOILT HER PHONE !!!

what friends are for ....

THEY ALWAYS CONTACT BEHIND ME AND MEET BEHIND ME !!!

a friend in need , is a friend indeed .

haish ,

im like a tissue for eu ... ];];];

NEXT !

121109 ?

went sheesha with classmate ..

it was FUN-ATIC ! LOL

gehhhrreeeeqqq !

well , i think that all .

Aida ,

i noe i may not be MR Perfect for eu , but i tried my best .

eu just dont seemed to be appreciating .

i cant sleep everynite , waiting for ur gdnite wish like everytime before .

even when you wish , the feeling is not like before .

i just want to noe that eu are everything to me ,

even when im nothing to eu ..

Sh[A]ida forever ? 041008 ?

i dunnoe .

i everyday doa agar eu selamat ,

dari dunia dan akhirat .

i sanggop uat ape2 utk eu ,

tapi eu take it for granted .

i know i made i mistake ,

well eventully that was the FIRST time !

i noe tymer and break is different ,

but i did it one time , itu pon i ckp IF .

then at last i apologised , cze i still love eu . but at last , eu ask for break ...

i noe i hurt ur feelings , but it can be patched back ?

well i see eu and other guys , bkn maen mesra ...

Erwin ; eu slalu jumpe dher taq blang ii ...

eu nan dher dh mcm ttm , close to mataer .

Syed Al-haqq ; eu masih sayangkan dher coze dher cool , tinggi .

and im not .

SotSot ; dher mintak patch .. he lied to me ?

the way eu dress now , is like Old Aida ...

i just want the new , changed for the better Aida .

i LOVE eu so much , but i dont think you do .

accept me back will eu ?

eu are the perfect one for me .

eu are ;

cute , pretty , lovable , sweet , always make me smile , many more .

i really want you back ,

like last tyme .

haish ,,

taccaire .

well thats all folks ...

will be posting more , soon insya-allah .

taccaire guys ,

and here is a song for eu guys ,

its called

 just a friend - too phat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trvxyJisAWg

Yeahh , its meeee.

Heyloo people .
sowie fer not posting for a long time .
so yeahh , lets start .

Im posting about that time outing wit marsiling-ians .
we go jalan raye !
andand ,
got a big fight wit her .
damn !
she was so like what sia dat day .
and she want me to feel wat i did to her the other time ,
was like fuck lorr ?
andand lucky she girl ,
if not i ........
hehe .
well , what to do ?
gentleman mahhh ?
hehe ,

k lhh . moving to today1`s topic .
she want to cukor kening ?!!
JAUH RAJA PANTAI tol .
(far king beach)
she pleaded me as she wanted it badly .
haiyy ,
andand i noe that i cant stop her from doing bad ,
but only she can stop me from what i do that can make she feel bad .
waduhh !
stress lahhh kann .
then i just gave that permission to her .
coze i LOVE her ..
nothing to do .
andand im FUCKING mad !
neverminddd .
i just dont want to break our relationship .

So yeahh .
andand some of the exam has past , and noe wat ?
for all my exam , i slept for half of the time !
for example .
i was given 1 hour 30 min for Social Studies ,
i slept for 45 minutes .
andand mother tongue paper 1 ,
i was given 2 hours i slept for one hour .
walauweyhhh !
haha .

k lahh .
thanks for listening !
andand , iLOVEeu so muchh Shayank !
taccaire peeps .

Fresh Start

Hey people !

this is my first post , yeah .

i hope i am not lazy updating this post as i had a few blogs before ,

which was now ignored , forever .

so im changing my attitude now , for the better .

insya-allah .

Andand lets start .

exams are near .

stress stress stress .

mcm world je ?

okay fine im not stressed .

because im confident i can pass .

mcm world agy ?

i noe i can pass coze i studied ,

only some .

andand planning to study after school ,

everyday until exam finish .

andand i hope i pass ,

coze i dont want to dissapoint mummy .

like anybody wants ?

kayy next topic is about ,

Her ?

oh she is caring , yeah .

who is she ?

she is Spider-women , andand im Spider-man .

World Jubo !

kayy she was mine back then .

She started messaging me back andand ,

i smell sumthing fishy .

hehe ,

and through the way she message me ,

i noe she likes me !

weeeee !

hehe , lol .

but , there is a girl in mind ,

which is mine . [:

kayy earthlings ,

taccaire .

will be posting more soon !