not in the mood .

hey people .

currently not in the mood .

why ?

cze i tried to do good but she misunderstand .

haiyy ,

i tried to stay away from argueing with uu ,

but at last we fought cze of misunderstanding .

haiyy ,

anw ,

lets drop the topic .

so how are uu guys ?

hope uu are doing well .

just wanna leave a msg ;

band members - hey , if i did anything wrong , well im sorry kayy ?

other friends? - yeahh , uu too . if i did anything wrong , im sorry .

Dearest - same msg . if i did anything wrong just forgive me . ]:

well thats it , bye

im useless

hey peeps .

i noe it sounds irritating , yeahh .

well thats reated to what im gonna post .

haiyy , ]:

everyone before said that im irritating 

and nw ,

i feel like a fucking irritating fucker .

my post are irrittating rite ?

then WHY ARE UU READING ??!!

come on ,

uu talk about me but uu still research on me ,

how fuck is that ?

anw , im irritating .

right ?

okay ,

im irrittatingly sad .

the sadness and tyme ,

it irrittates me .

and thats why i`m irritating .

i always tried to understand uu ,

undrstand everyone ,

but at last ,

not appreciated .

is this a test for me ?

but why me ?

its a BIG test i assume .

it irritate me day and night ,

non-stop .

haiyy ,

never appreciated ! ]:

im in no mood , like normal .

bt i jut want to let uu noe ;

band members - i tried to make uu guys smile bt seems like im smilling alone ,

other friends? - well , i tried to getalong with uu guys but why uu think that way ?

family - cummon , im related to uu guys . speechless ,

dearest - i just cant wait anymore but i still want to wait , still here for uu always . i still love eu , ]:

well thats all .

bye taccaire .

so not in the mood ,

Sowie !

hey peeps ,

Sowie for not posting much .

i not in the mood lurhh katerkan .

k lets start from ,,

last week ?

nothing much ,

just jealousy , -_-"

k mepek .

next ,

lets skip to ......

last two days ?

webcam nan aida , [:

i was happy !

hehe . its like meeting her ,

ohh i miss uu sooooo munchymuch .

k anw ,

yesterday ...

bought new lappie !!!

with my OWN money ,

[:

its like super promotion , $499 .

upgrade ram from 1 gig to 2 gig .

hee ~

so happy !

at last adr lappie sendiri ,

taqyah gado nan adk beradik utk pakai computer .

hehe .

k mepek ,

anw ,

so nw uu noe why i always cnt sleep rite ?

i just dunnoe why ,

its always uu in my mind .

haiyy ,

move on ?

still not sure .

like my phrase ,

the world gets older, n more people r getting better. 

bt im nt improving, cze im waiting. for u im willing.    

im hurt . haiyy ,

ilysm !

remember that , always . ]:

not in the mood , always .

hey peeps ,

currently not in the mood ryte now .

so yeah ,

not posting much .

family ?

push me aside .

yeahh , thanks dad for everything .

THANKS alot .

Ex ?

have a feeling she dont want me anymore .

WHY ?

ily , have eu ?

i waited for eu ,

have eu ?

haiyy ,

move on ,

can i ?

must be strong ,

am i strong enough ?

haiyy ,

wanna patch ?

eu never want .

haiyy ,

thats all i think .

bye

Sad ? ];

hey peeps ,

hw u doing ?

im FUCKING sad , ];

and friends of mine ,

do talk whatever u want at me ,

but its my life .

im pissed ~

k lets start about ,

SUNDAY !

family day but didnt go out wit parents that day.

went to shop wit imran ,

then after that meet kam and azhar(band members) at ion orchard.

it was like 4+ ?

then kam dad wanted to bring us go railway station makan .

we agreed .

we then hop on kam`s dad`s van and headed to the railway station .

saw my ex ,

she was smiling at me . [;

i smiled back and kam`s dad saw she smiling at me.

he thought i dunnoe her .

then he say to me ,

adr chance tuu . hehe !

then hop on back to the van.

and without us knowing ,

kam`s dad brought us to marina barrage .

WoW !

gehreq , lepak2 .

every single step i thought of eu ,

every breath i take there reminds me of eu ,

and every scenery there take me to misery . ];

i just love eu and only eu .

haiyy ,

then went to orchard back and mustaffa centre .

went home around 1am .

kk next ,

yestersay which was 141209 ;

i went to tampines alone to buy battery for my hp and went back home .

messaged her but didnt eply .

haiyy ,

then at night went night soccer ,

nothing much happened .

then get home around 11 .

then i read her blog .

Every single article ,

she MUST mention that name . R _ _ _ _ _

haiyy ,

she like HIM ?

well im lost in the battle .

i just dunnoe what to do .

my friends say to me to move on ,

and i tried .

i cant ,

just kept thinking of eu .

eu and only eu .

i hope eu understand my feelings .

i promised to make eu happy always .

i never broke my promise untill that FUCKING BITCH BASTARD BOMBARD BIG mistake i did . ];

but eu didnt aprecciate it .

and i appreciate what eu did ,

its just that im to stress that made me do that mistake .

haiyy , ];

well i dont wanna talk bout it .

if only i can rewind back tyme .

nw , i dont have a listening ear ,

a place to rely on ,

a love to throw to .

well i only have my blog .

thats why i blog always .

i complaint to this  blog and i feel better cze i got someone. i mean someTHING to share my probs with .

not like last tyme ,

share it to her . ];

k enough .

i dont wanna shed a tear ,

k taccaire readers ,

are you really for me ? ];

not in the mood

hey peeps ,

currently not in the mood now .

k lets talk bout yesterday ,

friday .

it was a fucking sad day.

i just felt rejected.

why god?

in the morning my fam didnt even speak to me.

when the saw me, they just kept quite.

its so sad.

the i wentbugis with my another friend,

he was like acting weirdly towards me,

all of the sudden.

haiyy, ];

then i went to work and night time,we fought?

im sowie kayy?

i noe i hurt ur feelings,

but just forgive me.

im not good at caring for ur heart,

i suck.];

k next topic, dont wanna talk much.

thursday,

it was also a sad day.

fought with her that night.

WHY???!!

haiyy,

after all this while i waited for her for so long,

its not aprreciated? haiyy,

bby,

i wanna say straight forward.

i want to be with u,

not bcoze of urbody or whatever.

but i wanna be with eu bcoze of ur love,

the way eu smile,

the way eu show ur caringness,

the way eu express urself.

and bby, i promise that any problems that comes to eu,

i will try to help  eu in any way with the best solution at not to be mad at eu.

remember that time eu stress and i helped eu?

i NEVER broke my promise to u until that tyme.

but i confessed that it is i BIG mistake.

im stupid fucking ass, i noe.

im sorry,

i hope eu forgive me.

bby,

i hope eu thrust me.

for what i did and not doing it again,

and to care for ur heart seriously. haiyy,

i think thats it.

now all my friends , fam , her , workmate , manager .

i feel rejected by them.

if only dead,

people would be sad for just a minute and happy back.

or even not sad at all.

haiyy,

kk taccaire peeps.

and bby,

ily. ];

hope eu consider well , ];];];

Hey peeps !

how are you guys ?

doing great?

yeahh .

me?

fucking life fer this week !

haiyy,

kk first, about last sunday.

kanina choucheebyee !

my whole family and i went to my aunt house,

gt these function.

and eventually, im working tht day.

my dad`s plan for that day ;

12pm- proceed to aunt house.

3pm- leave my aunts house and go ion orchard, shopping.

My plans for the day ;

12pm- proceed to aunt house together with fam.

3pm- proceed to work.

BUT, the day went like this ;

1pm- proceed to aunt house.

4pm proceed to next event.

so i wanted to go to work, but my dad say follow him to shopping for a while.

my work starts at 6.

sunt house at sembawang. the time getting there takes about 40 min.

and the tyme from orchard to my workplace is like 1hr 30 min.

altogether, 2hr 10min.

WTH??!!

by the tyme im 10min late for work .

then had a commossion wit daddy.

my mum was trying to cover me, but at last they blame EVERYTHING on me.

i was like so stress!

that day is a fucking day to me.

walaowaeyhh !!!

k nvm. that night,

aida was stress. i was stress, summore going back from home, and at home also stress seeing my parents.

so it was like FUCKING KANINA GYLER BABS stress.

then she insisted on not telling me her prob, 

but at last she tell.

okkayy.

her prob is about her life.

ouhhkkayy, gave her some advice and yeahh,

she cooled down.

and yeahh, i still love her.

the same feeling since the start of our relationship,

041008.

haiyy,

i waited for her like almost two month even though she said nt nw for everytime i asked her fer patch.

but i will still wait till the last of my breath. ]:

i love her veryverymuch.

wheteher or nt it is appreciated?

idontnoe.

but nvm,

haiyy.

sadsadsad , ];];];

k anw,

i made a LONG poem. 

which i changed it to a song . [;

here is the poem.

no COPYRIGHT aites ! [:

Sekali pandang wajahmu,

terasa tenang dihatiku.

kuinginkan engkau disisiku,

tetapiku dapat tahu engkau selingkuh.

Engkau patahkan janjimu.

Engkau dustai cintaku.

Ku tak kan bercinta lagi.

selepas kejadian ini,

Ku simpan dihati.

Ohh..._ _ _ _ (name)

sanggupnya kau manyakiti,

hatiku yang suci.

ku...sedar,

nasibku yang sebegini,

ujian ilahi.

Sa...nggupnya,

engkau pergi dengan dia,

bersuka ria.

Sa....kitnya,

hatiku yang terluka,

tanpa kau sedar.

Akhirnya kita berpisah,

supaya kau hidup bahagia,

dengan si dia.

Ku takkan lupakan dia,

kekasihku yang tercita,

_ _ _ _   _ _ _ _ _ _(name)..... 

So how ??

hehe .

k till here i guest.

my hands are tired of typing. [:

k taccaire folks !

Im back !

Hey peeplss!

sowie for not posting long .

cze i got soccer camp and stuff,

so lets start .

The camp,

it was FCUKing tiring.

kaki cramp gyler naq mampos .

the third day training,

EVERYONE walk like old man , [:

haha..

k next,

........

actually dunnoe what to post .

just wanna say that im missing her, and loving her .

does she appreciate me? ohh well ,

i dunnoe.

k lhh , taccaire guys .

insya-allah update more.